No One is Better Off Alone

No one is better off alone. Not even when you are so sure of it, no. I'm not saying that being alone and single is a bad thing. But having the mindset that you can't be happy with someone, sucks and not true at all. It might be difficult but it doesn't mean that you don't deserve it or it is not for you. If you're in pain and hurt and you think that way, maybe you're with the wrong person or you just have to work out the issues with them. I wish it was easy too, but what relationship does.

I feel that way sometimes, that I'm better off alone, he does too. Maybe I'll be good at this, being alone. Maybe time would ease up my way. I've always believe in love even when it disappoints me. Now I want to believe in time more. I never think myself as rushing into a relationship, I just thought that, why not now? Why wait? Maybe that's my lesson. To wait.

I'm so vulnerable right now, I swear if anyone's come knocking I would definitely want to have a peek behind that door. Maybe it's true that I'm so used to having a boyfriend figure even when he's barely there, as long as I have him. I don't want that anymore. I would always crave for it but I want to be alone for some time. It's more like, I need to. If I forget this I hope someone would knock some sense into me.

I feel so embarrassed somehow. For believing in what my heart says, for feeling so sure but then it turns out so wrong. But that is what makes me love unconditionally. So I say to myself, it's okay. It will be okay. I'm okay.