Zira

The reason why I hate birthday surprises or anything of some sort is because I will definitely cry! And I look ugly when I cry so I hate it haha. Even small gestures make me cry. Truly am a very sensitive person haha. Saying thank you is even harder when you’re choking with your own tears. But really, thank you! For everything! For making me feel special on my special day. Thank you, friend. 💜

Don’t feel bad for having a hard time with your friends. Because you’re human. And don’t forget that they’re human too.

I was with Ina at her room tonight. It was late and we’re kinda hungry. But I don’t wanna eat just bread cause it’s so boring and I’m so lazy to cook either. Eating out? Only kedai tomyam is open at this time. Eating nasi will make me too full so I don’t want that too. Mcd? Essspensive. At the end we did’t eat anything. 🙃 But I did eat tons of kek batik. You think that should fuel me, nahhh my belly is still grumbling a little. 🙂

Whyyy do I always only wanna do my work in a coffee shop? Hmm?! As if I have a lot of money to spend around. I don’t know why, is it really because of the coffee? Or I just like to work in a busy place but without having people paying attention to me? Cause you know, in a restaurant or cafe, people might be observing others there but then they just mind their own business. Good thing McCafe is nearby, before this I have to drive all the way to Setia Tropika to go to Starbucks. Besides, coffee there is a bit cheaper. That’s a plus. I can’t say that I didn’t get flattered at the attention hahahaha. A girl ordering Iced Americano and working on her laptop alone for quite some time, cam cool kan, it peaks a few interest you know. Hahaha. Boo zira. I only say this here cause I don’t think anyone reading this hahaha. Dah dah 그만~ ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ

Ahhh na tteokbokki mogeoshippeo!

Qeen tweeted about how the full moon is so beautiful. I just glanced to the open windows, refusing to take a look at the night sky myself. Because I don’t want to be reminded of that person.

Why does it feels like I’m missing something? Or is this just a feeling of forgetting to do something that I wanna do? I think of that just now. And then I remember I haven’t write anything today. Nahhh I don’t think I’m that passionate with my blog haha.

Do I have to write a deep and emotional post every time? I hate it when every time I tryna make something or do something I'll compare myself to others then I would stop doing the things I wanna do because I feel like I'm not good enough. Right now I'm comparing myself to this girl who writes well and has meaningful content on her blog and also Vivy Yusof. Jeez Zira. Oh you know how I like swimming? Whenever I swim I will always look at other's swimming, how their skill are cool and how fast they swim and I became conscious of myself. It makes me don't wanna swim anymore cause I feel like I'm slow and the way that I swim is wrong. I always ended up my swimming session feeling down and unable to enjoy my time when in fact I was so excited to go swimming at the first place. So silly.  If you wanna write, just write. If you wanna swim, just keep swimming just keep swimming! :D

Why does the wifi always disconnected at around this time at night? I tried multiple times but won’t connect!  I was watching Hyori’s Bed and Breakfast just now. If you’re a fan of kshow and you just want to watch something light, you should try watching this show. It’s fun and relaxing. I feel comfortable watching this show.  I watch a lot of kshows these days. If you know me you should know that I have a lot of interest in Korean Language because I watched kdramas and kshows a lot. So because I watched it a lot lately I started to pick up some of the lines and conversations. Sometimes I react in Korean and think in Korean especially when I tried to express myself (like now: chigeum cheoreom). But when I tried to speak it out loud it won’t come out correctly because I only remember partially. Jjajinggna. It’s annoying. You think you know but you don’t haha.  What should I title this post hmm?

I guess kek batik would be my favourite cake now. Oh my mouth starts salivating now... I think food is a great way to express love and care. It’s nice to have your friends prepared you food sometimes. I feel loved. 💜